imperfect

i never think i'm the prefect person. i just a normal guy that want a simple life. nothin more i demand. i really stress with all i have now.. really! i not good at it.. i'm a trouble maker. i cause everyone in trouble. never a a good guy.. i have cause my company a big problem. and its all a middle man, that me.. i m stupid.. really idoit. nothin but just a rubbish human being.. i been thinking of suicide before i have important people in my life. my dad, my mum, my sis n bro, my friends and most of it share my feeling too..
but i really tension with all my things and what i have done cause a big problem.

mayb in few more hours or day, it will be my last day.. i'm done of it already.. i suffer enough. tension enough. stress enough..

Perfection destroy

Being perfect is not enough.  As well some said, a perfect things is not from human its self, it from what are you creating and what are you believe it. Some said "Ugly" is "Prefect". Wise guys say it good enough. Its true. This happen when i been searching for prefect relationship, i always fail to do so. SO when i met her, why no i create a prefect relationship rather than searching for prefect relationship? Its a massive failure for me to do that so.. i don't know what went wrong with me. I being so prefect for her while she keep saying she's not prefect for me. Everyone is not prefect, same goes as me. I not prefect as i got some weakness within me. i hardly control my tamper and my tamper can be control by someone i loved. Truly its true. She had control and teach me grow up more mature in many way. I never forget this so i learn and keep on learning to give her happiness and what she wanted. But....i got no comment for this...
Conclusion, being a prefect will only destroy yourself and not gaining good benefited too.. As well we creating it to be prefect. Like some genius said, "Practice make Prefect"

Do you have to have a reason for loving?

Road not taken

i have no idea what am i doing?
being so care about her make me more hurt deep..deeper...deeeeep! wow! *knife uh in my heart?
all i wan is her existence and knowing i always there for her. i just wan your notice and messages. Its simple and knowing what you doing and not making worry about you all the time. I know you not a child anymore, but what a responsibility as your boyfriend is to know where and what you doing. Care about you. Love you as much as you know. Don't care what it is. What wrong. Or anythings else is doing on.

Love is just blind. Some may said it just a fairy tales. Some may said it just a jokes. Some may said its just stupid and childish. Some may said it worthless and useless...
What make it important is that we love each other without people complain about it. This is free world. A world that we can do anything. But there always way to block it and make it harder. Even that, we couldn't give up just like that. Its always a reason to start a relationship, but its only end when the feeling is not worth it anymore. That what my friend told me. I think i will stay what it is. Share what we done. Tell what we have to do. Notified each other what we are doing even we use notes and messages. Its only give some notice that we are care each other even we are far away. Even in some distance. Even in 1 foot away.

"Every relationship starts with a reason. Its only end when the feeling is not worth it anymore"

Mystery of time

I need time.. Time can only prove that i'm exist.. Prove that she exist too.. Prove that our love is exist.. Prove that time is my medicine.. Prove that i can show my love...my care...my trust..

Sometimes its maybe quiet.. Sometimes its maybe noisy...but just time can prove everything. either its hurts or heal me..

Time is relative,
Time is relevant,
Time can irelevant,
Time stands still against our will,
Time is precious and generous,
Time is essential and preferential,
Time waits for no one,
Time is gone just like that,
Time can be cruel & brutal,
Time can be harsh,
Time is our worst enemy,
Time can be special,
Time can magical,
Time can be too practical,
Time can be endless as breathless.

"Time doesn't lie, time can only tell truth."

5 Ways to Let a Girl Know You're Interested In Her, with none of this "confessing" nonsense

"Confessing" is for losers. Seriously. It is the lamest way of letting a girl know you like her, and it is not very effective. Here's why:

- You're giving up all control over the outcome. All the power is now in her hands to either say yes or no. There's nothing you can do about it anymore.

- You're putting unnecessary pressure on her. Suddenly she has to decide then and there how she feels about you, when she may not even be sure herself yet. And she may be afraid of hurting you if she says no. It's not fair to put her in such a position.

- You're asking her to love you back. You don't ask for love. You offer it, and if she accepts, she will offer hers in return.

- You're setting up an unrealistic expectation. Since you asked for her love, she will tend to see you as someone who always has to earn it. She will see herself as a princess to you, because you played the role of a beggar to her.

- You're creating the impression that you're ashamed to have feelings for her. Because that's what a confession is - an admission of guilt or wrongdoing.

- You're making a huge dramatic moment out something very small. Liking a girl is ultimately a small thing.

Those last two points are perhaps the most important to understand. Just because you've met a girl whom you have the hots for, doesn't mean she's The One OMG!!!11 And wanting to date her doesn't mean you're asking her to promise to marry you ASAP. If you're thinking this way, then of course you're ashamed to admit you like her, because you're expecting far more than she can realistically give. You're probably doing all you can to keep your feelings secret from her and everyone else like a lovesick schoolboy.

Stop being a lovesick schoolboy. Mature adults are not ashamed of their feelings. Whether you've fallen head over heels for her, or you just think she's really really pretty, you should not be afraid to show it - to her. And you can show it in a way that flatters her, that makes her feel desired, and that does not make her uncomfortable.

1) Eye contact. You know how two people tend to not look each other in the eye for too long? That there's usually a time limit before both people look away? Well, if you like this girl, maintain eye contact just a little longer than the time limit. Look at her just a little longer than necessary. Then give her a little smile before looking away. Don't stare, don't glue your eyes to her all the time. Just don't be afraid to show that you like looking at her.

2) Make her laugh. It's one thing to get her to talk comfortably with you. It's another thing for her to enjoy talking to you, so much so that she remembers how much she enjoys talking to you. Be at your wittiest and most charming, put some effort into making her laugh. Don't be too shy to say something like, "Hey, wanna hear a joke?" Then tell her a dozen jokes, one after another. Let her know that you're purposely trying to make her happy.

3) Remember the things she says. Listen to what she has to say, then show her that you listened. If she mentioned her dog Poochie, greet her with "Hi, how's Poochie?" the next time you see her. If she mentioned she has trouble sleeping, ask her if she slept well the next day. If she likes a certain TV show, find out when the show airs, then ask her how was last night's episode the next day. Better yet, watch the show, so that you can talk about it with her. You can even tell her you didn't like the show - the fact that you watched it just because of her is flattering enough.

4) Physical proximity/contact. This is a tricky one, so be very careful. Position yourself closer to her - not too close, but a little closer than normal. You know the distance between friends, and the distance between bf and gf? You want to be exactly halfway in-between. (And better make sure you're wearing deodorant!) Similarly, give her a little touch every now and then, but be careful. Touch her shoulder when you want to get her attention. When talking to her, pat her on her arm to emphasize a point; if you've gotten close enough to her, you can try her thigh. When walking together, put your hand on the small of her back to guide her in a different direction. Just don't let your hand linger there too long.

You know what's the best thing about all these? They are measurable. Meaning, you will know instantly whether or not they're working. If she likes you, she will return the eye contact with you; she will laugh at all your jokes; she will appreciate the fact that you remember things about her; she will stand close to you, and she will touch you. If she doesn't, then you'll know she's not interested. By doing these things, you're not only showing her you like her, you're also giving her the option of gently rejecting you - or subtly encouraging you.

And if you're getting all the right signals from her, it's time to move on to:

5) Ask her out. Just you and her. None of the rest of your gang. Nobody else. Yes, it's a date. It could be a movie, it could be a drink at a coffee place, or if you're really confident, it could be dinner at a nice restaurant. Don't treat it as if it's a big deal, as if by saying yes she'll be making a big commitment to you. Keep this in mind if she's reluctant - say, "Hey, it's just a movie/coffee/dinner, I'm not asking you to marry me laa."

And after you do all this, after you've got the date... then what?

Then you just let it happen naturally. And believe me, if you've gotten this far and the girl has been showing all the signs of liking you, it will happen naturally. Which may be a surprise if you've always thought that tackling a girl is a long, gruelling, agonizingly difficult task that involves a "confession". You may be surprised at how easy it was. Which is as it should be. (And don't give me that "if it's easy to get, you won't appreciate" nonsense. ) If a guy and a girl like each other, they should fall into a relationship easily.

This is how mature adults do it. And even if you are a lovesick schoolboy, you should still do it this way. Because it's the right way to do it.

Note: these are not 5 steps. They're only arranged in that order from most to least daring, but you don't need to follow the order - except that if you want her to say yes to no. 5, you should've gotten good responses to nos. 1-4 first. No. 3 obviously only works from the second time you see her onwards, but if you're getting signals from her during your very first meeting, then by all means ask her out there and then. They're not 5 steps, they're 5 ways.

Simple Plan - Jet Lag ft. Natasha Bedingfield

What time is it where you are?
I miss you more than anything
Back at home you feel so far
Waitin for the phone to ring
It's gettin lonely livin upside down
I don't even wanna be in this town
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

[Chorus]

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart heart heart is so jetlagged

[Verse 2]

What time is it where you are?
5 more days and i'll be home
I keep your picture in my car
I hate the thought of you alone
I been keeping busy all the time
Just to try to keep you off my hand
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

[Chorus]

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart heart heart is so jetlagged
[Simple Plan - Jet Lag (feat. Natasha Bedingfield) Lyrics on http://mrkayrell.blogspot.com]

[Bridge]

I've been keepin busy all time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy
I miss you so bad
I wanna share your horizon
And see the same sunrising
Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me

[Chorus]

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad
And my heart heart heart is so jetlagged

A day without feeling

guess what? nothin big matter but busy busy during day but have fun durin evening and night!
around 6pm. i go meet up my beloved. she workin at MITC today and guess what she selling? a machine name making? XD how cool was that. but maked some for me and i will keep it will i die? hopefully i will last long on this relationship. XD

Then night time. its party time with my bros. limteh at WingCafe and go pool at Jetty(kinda suck place) prefer DP there.. XD

The sweetest of all sounds is praise.

Story of a photographer life.

love = romance
love = feeling
love = happiness
love = share
love = trust
love = care
love = joys
love = sorrow
love = sacrifice

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.

taste of memories

i have no idea what i have been thinkin theses day...
either im happy or sad.
its just my 6 senses come again. *awww i just being like a gal uh?
just face it what ever its come and pass thru me!
believe me!
nothin gonna happen if you think its gonna happen. uh? XD

"people said i complain too much.. but i just complain myself that i'm totally useless."

a tale of story

i taught i being a rotation in my life.. but i never know that i had become a sub-supervisor in my brand and company how cool was that uh?

unexpected

not even a day i get more happy or sad.
few day ago. i sms-ed my supervisor and she said she resign. i was shock and feel unhappy. i taught its real but....

so when wednesday, its my OFF DAY. so i stop by MMU to visit my frenz exhibition. kinda cool to walk around MMU. as in i'm kampung kia le. building higher than me! haha!! well nvm lo.. hang out till 5plus.. met all my old schoolmate and old fren there too.. even my lovely NS friend pass by. didnt notice that was comin anyway.. hahhaa.. well she ajak me to pure to teman her lo.. to kill time there.. XD leng lui lehh when i reach there.. unexpected for me.. so have a little chat about our old stories and bla bla bla lo.. i drunk pulak drink 2 bottle of Carlsberg then i almost KO ad.. too long didnt drink lo.. wanna quit it soon or less drink. but give me a good night sleep then. Thanks Carlsberg!! hahah!!

its thurs ad.. going back to work with some emo mood. i think that i talk too much and bla bla too much too like aunty lehh.. and then i decided to go for MORE in my life. An opportunity for me to grow older in my life. then a few hours then.. *phone rang~~ its my supervisor calling me.. i was happy and she sounded me! find me a promoter for MP area there.. i was WTH? then i asked lo.. u really resign a?? she said YES.. my heart was zzzZzzz.. its my role to follow and its gone. how i gonna take care myself and a big counter lehh?? then . inform Daniel(my floor exe) and he was shock too!! wad a life man.. but he called my supervisor back. its a shocking life this day! she told Daniel about what happen and... guess what??? i been promoted to higher level sale assistance aka rotation in malacca. WOW! any happy and sad news in a week!? well~~ i think i get what i achieve.

before you quit..you try it... you never know what the result is!

Thanks GOD! you changed my life since i leave collages. i think GOD give me a good direction in my life!

re-think

Sometimes i just being stupid of myself think think think about it..
When it finalizes it,
My aunty told me, that i'm no.2 type of guy. Which mean i am soft hearted type of guy with full of love and care uh?? WTF is this? but i think.. that indeed is true about it.. beside that, i'm a follower not a leader. which mean i follow any step to success in my life. means I"M A LOOSER?
oh well.. what to do..
but still i will follow what my 6sense goes and tell me
HURT, HAPPY, SAD, MOODY, ANGRY, CRAZY or whatever!!

i love this type of sunset very much!

snap using my phone zylo. 

heheheh~~~

Hater!?!?

Question : Some really hate me that much uhhh???

Answer : When you're famous, you gotta have haters. its like tradition. so take it as a compliment. dude, you're famous !