Famous Laughter

Why "Famous Laughter"? Cuz of her name "Syahirah Farhanah"
She? An Admirer that likes me.. I still remember that we get thru connection with a dinner with me geng..where my friend Ipin bring this girl and seat together with us, and she seat beside me.. i was like "Uhhhuuuuuhh"?? and i notice her movement and she ain't pretty either but she's cute.. well nvm..saw her with her phone, she might have BF. that was back in 20'Nov 2012.. and when we walked back, and yes.. i was playful all the time, happy go lucky.. i saw her purse and get it and hit Ipin.. i didnt know what was going on either.. the next thing......

In another day, where this Myra, a close friend of mine in Parkson told me that someone "kirim salam" to me and said it was an admirer.. I insist tell Myra WHO IS HER?? and she said is was her "back to school" part time, wearing tudung.. i go and see and notice it was her? and i was like WTH? girl admire me? for? why? when? what? as my attitude, i love going the flow.. so decided that, asking myra about her number.. and i start texting her... well.. (i miss our old conversation)

She asking me to become her BF, a serious one too......


-to be continue-

memories

Its a sweet and sour memories for me.. Even through we have some hard time.. but i'll never forget about her and this relationship.. She called Daya.

Once in a time, we are stranger in Parkson Mahkota. I met her thru Baby Kiko part time and i was a Mickey promoter there. It was strange that i wanted to know her but i scared. I try to "Jual Mahal" and finally i knew her. She was a young looking lady and quite tall, she have a sweet smile and i wont forget her smile at that moment. we chat as friend and knowing each other well too..

In some fine day, i was offday, i stop by at Parkson and hang around. She around too.. lucky. I called "Mak Cik" due to her age born in 1988. hahah.. its Quite cute of her name. So on that day, i complained that i was hungry and wanted to eat maggie.. She said that she will cook maggie sup for me.. hahha.. well its interesting..things is we exchange phone number. =) i hope i cal be friend more better.. So the next day, i was out for a movie.. I was wandering since i got her number, why dont i msg her and chat awhile.. Guess what.. She said she will cook "Maggie Sup" and make me wont forget her in my life.. i was soo touch of that.. and she said she fallen in love with me.. How brave for a lady telling me that.. i was blush* and i take some time to rethink of that.. So i decided to take a shot why dont go for it. I wont regret for what i choose for.. SO we start our relationship on June. i will never forget all the moment we start.. I call her Bi (aka baby) and she called me "Sayang", i never got a that nick name before..

7June 2011, we decide to hand out @Jusco for our first dating ever.. i go fetch her and waiting for a moment for our first date.. *getting excited* Ok we went for a movie and have some moment together. we walked and discover that she love "Milo" and dislike "plain water". i scolded her for not drinking plain water.. and she ignore it.. hahah.. and we sat down, we chat.. i notice that 7June is her B'day.. how am i so careless of that.. Mayb its our first time.. i felt guilty for that but i give her a warm kiss on her cheeks and a big huggs.. then she wanted go back her hometown in the evening then.. I'll never forget that moment..

Bring back memories to me.. *i'm crying now* We have a hard time each other due we are different religion. but i understand that god are the same that teaches human good deed. Our relationship was up and down but i try so hard to protect this relationship.. cause i never give up on what i done in. we dont like breaking up.. She said that i always "manja" her like 18 year old child.. treat her like a baby to me.. She always advice her that "Ini di namakn ujian dlm kehidupan" she always like a mother to me and like a baby to me too..

One day, she argue that i'm still a kids to her.. i'm still young and wanna let go this relationship.. we argue till we really break up.. but i never quit for this relationship.. but i think human need to let go and follow the flow.. if she yours mean she will come back for you.. and she did.. she come back look for me that night but i left too early.. i was regretted for that.. and we get back together since then.. she told me that "you punya ayat kdg2 like malay that why i jatoh aty. Jika btl u jodoh hidup, xkn lari gunung dikejar." i was soo touch for her words.. i know that i did the right choices..

she conplain that she hate her life, she tension her ys susah. she cant tahan for all that. i felt her kesusahan tu.. she wanted to live in better.. she dont like her life.. but i try to help her up for a better life.. i always wan her go get better each day.. wan her to get happy.. wan her go think freely from all that living.. so i find all kind of way to support her as i can..

she msg me one day "tp is jd pe2 kat relationship kt i mta maaf ye tp i try the best." i do believe for that.. so we stay strong.. but i x nk hilang u. i xcukup kuat n xmanpu utk bimbing u ke agama islam" but i try my best for all i can.. so i make her happy always.. as infect i send her small love and stick at her car. Just after her work, she can smile looking at the paper love. inside love there always writing about something for her..

But in one day. i was sooooo STUPID to believe my friend say that she got another guy outside.. i cant believe it but i think its was fake.. She never lied to me.. i know her too well.. but mayb i was weak too.. In the end we finish a relationship on 7Jan2012. it a 7month relationship for me.. a longest and sweet memories together.. hard and soft road.. i knew that our relationship will never stable.. but trying my best and i did my job to love her.. I will never forget that monent.. i was soo stupid for that...

Thank you for having me in your life.. I always pray for you to get better in life..

-alvin-
iloveyou always in my life..

is like half of my life is gone just like that.. i did somethings that very hurting and wrong.. i feel like i'm useless for everythings.. i dowan to loose something that valueable even it is small.. i going crazy soon if i keep on like this... God please help me... i'm suffering everyday...really do...i need your hand...

translate ENGLISH to BM

imperfect

i never think i'm the prefect person. i just a normal guy that want a simple life. nothin more i demand. i really stress with all i have now.. really! i not good at it.. i'm a trouble maker. i cause everyone in trouble. never a a good guy.. i have cause my company a big problem. and its all a middle man, that me.. i m stupid.. really idoit. nothin but just a rubbish human being.. i been thinking of suicide before i have important people in my life. my dad, my mum, my sis n bro, my friends and most of it share my feeling too..
but i really tension with all my things and what i have done cause a big problem.

mayb in few more hours or day, it will be my last day.. i'm done of it already.. i suffer enough. tension enough. stress enough..

Perfection destroy

Being perfect is not enough.  As well some said, a perfect things is not from human its self, it from what are you creating and what are you believe it. Some said "Ugly" is "Prefect". Wise guys say it good enough. Its true. This happen when i been searching for prefect relationship, i always fail to do so. SO when i met her, why no i create a prefect relationship rather than searching for prefect relationship? Its a massive failure for me to do that so.. i don't know what went wrong with me. I being so prefect for her while she keep saying she's not prefect for me. Everyone is not prefect, same goes as me. I not prefect as i got some weakness within me. i hardly control my tamper and my tamper can be control by someone i loved. Truly its true. She had control and teach me grow up more mature in many way. I never forget this so i learn and keep on learning to give her happiness and what she wanted. But....i got no comment for this...
Conclusion, being a prefect will only destroy yourself and not gaining good benefited too.. As well we creating it to be prefect. Like some genius said, "Practice make Prefect"

Do you have to have a reason for loving?

Road not taken

i have no idea what am i doing?
being so care about her make me more hurt deep..deeper...deeeeep! wow! *knife uh in my heart?
all i wan is her existence and knowing i always there for her. i just wan your notice and messages. Its simple and knowing what you doing and not making worry about you all the time. I know you not a child anymore, but what a responsibility as your boyfriend is to know where and what you doing. Care about you. Love you as much as you know. Don't care what it is. What wrong. Or anythings else is doing on.

Love is just blind. Some may said it just a fairy tales. Some may said it just a jokes. Some may said its just stupid and childish. Some may said it worthless and useless...
What make it important is that we love each other without people complain about it. This is free world. A world that we can do anything. But there always way to block it and make it harder. Even that, we couldn't give up just like that. Its always a reason to start a relationship, but its only end when the feeling is not worth it anymore. That what my friend told me. I think i will stay what it is. Share what we done. Tell what we have to do. Notified each other what we are doing even we use notes and messages. Its only give some notice that we are care each other even we are far away. Even in some distance. Even in 1 foot away.

"Every relationship starts with a reason. Its only end when the feeling is not worth it anymore"

Mystery of time

I need time.. Time can only prove that i'm exist.. Prove that she exist too.. Prove that our love is exist.. Prove that time is my medicine.. Prove that i can show my love...my care...my trust..

Sometimes its maybe quiet.. Sometimes its maybe noisy...but just time can prove everything. either its hurts or heal me..

Time is relative,
Time is relevant,
Time can irelevant,
Time stands still against our will,
Time is precious and generous,
Time is essential and preferential,
Time waits for no one,
Time is gone just like that,
Time can be cruel & brutal,
Time can be harsh,
Time is our worst enemy,
Time can be special,
Time can magical,
Time can be too practical,
Time can be endless as breathless.

"Time doesn't lie, time can only tell truth."

5 Ways to Let a Girl Know You're Interested In Her, with none of this "confessing" nonsense

"Confessing" is for losers. Seriously. It is the lamest way of letting a girl know you like her, and it is not very effective. Here's why:

- You're giving up all control over the outcome. All the power is now in her hands to either say yes or no. There's nothing you can do about it anymore.

- You're putting unnecessary pressure on her. Suddenly she has to decide then and there how she feels about you, when she may not even be sure herself yet. And she may be afraid of hurting you if she says no. It's not fair to put her in such a position.

- You're asking her to love you back. You don't ask for love. You offer it, and if she accepts, she will offer hers in return.

- You're setting up an unrealistic expectation. Since you asked for her love, she will tend to see you as someone who always has to earn it. She will see herself as a princess to you, because you played the role of a beggar to her.

- You're creating the impression that you're ashamed to have feelings for her. Because that's what a confession is - an admission of guilt or wrongdoing.

- You're making a huge dramatic moment out something very small. Liking a girl is ultimately a small thing.

Those last two points are perhaps the most important to understand. Just because you've met a girl whom you have the hots for, doesn't mean she's The One OMG!!!11 And wanting to date her doesn't mean you're asking her to promise to marry you ASAP. If you're thinking this way, then of course you're ashamed to admit you like her, because you're expecting far more than she can realistically give. You're probably doing all you can to keep your feelings secret from her and everyone else like a lovesick schoolboy.

Stop being a lovesick schoolboy. Mature adults are not ashamed of their feelings. Whether you've fallen head over heels for her, or you just think she's really really pretty, you should not be afraid to show it - to her. And you can show it in a way that flatters her, that makes her feel desired, and that does not make her uncomfortable.

1) Eye contact. You know how two people tend to not look each other in the eye for too long? That there's usually a time limit before both people look away? Well, if you like this girl, maintain eye contact just a little longer than the time limit. Look at her just a little longer than necessary. Then give her a little smile before looking away. Don't stare, don't glue your eyes to her all the time. Just don't be afraid to show that you like looking at her.

2) Make her laugh. It's one thing to get her to talk comfortably with you. It's another thing for her to enjoy talking to you, so much so that she remembers how much she enjoys talking to you. Be at your wittiest and most charming, put some effort into making her laugh. Don't be too shy to say something like, "Hey, wanna hear a joke?" Then tell her a dozen jokes, one after another. Let her know that you're purposely trying to make her happy.

3) Remember the things she says. Listen to what she has to say, then show her that you listened. If she mentioned her dog Poochie, greet her with "Hi, how's Poochie?" the next time you see her. If she mentioned she has trouble sleeping, ask her if she slept well the next day. If she likes a certain TV show, find out when the show airs, then ask her how was last night's episode the next day. Better yet, watch the show, so that you can talk about it with her. You can even tell her you didn't like the show - the fact that you watched it just because of her is flattering enough.

4) Physical proximity/contact. This is a tricky one, so be very careful. Position yourself closer to her - not too close, but a little closer than normal. You know the distance between friends, and the distance between bf and gf? You want to be exactly halfway in-between. (And better make sure you're wearing deodorant!) Similarly, give her a little touch every now and then, but be careful. Touch her shoulder when you want to get her attention. When talking to her, pat her on her arm to emphasize a point; if you've gotten close enough to her, you can try her thigh. When walking together, put your hand on the small of her back to guide her in a different direction. Just don't let your hand linger there too long.

You know what's the best thing about all these? They are measurable. Meaning, you will know instantly whether or not they're working. If she likes you, she will return the eye contact with you; she will laugh at all your jokes; she will appreciate the fact that you remember things about her; she will stand close to you, and she will touch you. If she doesn't, then you'll know she's not interested. By doing these things, you're not only showing her you like her, you're also giving her the option of gently rejecting you - or subtly encouraging you.

And if you're getting all the right signals from her, it's time to move on to:

5) Ask her out. Just you and her. None of the rest of your gang. Nobody else. Yes, it's a date. It could be a movie, it could be a drink at a coffee place, or if you're really confident, it could be dinner at a nice restaurant. Don't treat it as if it's a big deal, as if by saying yes she'll be making a big commitment to you. Keep this in mind if she's reluctant - say, "Hey, it's just a movie/coffee/dinner, I'm not asking you to marry me laa."

And after you do all this, after you've got the date... then what?

Then you just let it happen naturally. And believe me, if you've gotten this far and the girl has been showing all the signs of liking you, it will happen naturally. Which may be a surprise if you've always thought that tackling a girl is a long, gruelling, agonizingly difficult task that involves a "confession". You may be surprised at how easy it was. Which is as it should be. (And don't give me that "if it's easy to get, you won't appreciate" nonsense. ) If a guy and a girl like each other, they should fall into a relationship easily.

This is how mature adults do it. And even if you are a lovesick schoolboy, you should still do it this way. Because it's the right way to do it.

Note: these are not 5 steps. They're only arranged in that order from most to least daring, but you don't need to follow the order - except that if you want her to say yes to no. 5, you should've gotten good responses to nos. 1-4 first. No. 3 obviously only works from the second time you see her onwards, but if you're getting signals from her during your very first meeting, then by all means ask her out there and then. They're not 5 steps, they're 5 ways.